Good morn- er, aftern- ....evething.

[blissmorgan]

Yesterday I was feeling small and sad and quiet, and it was my day off, and aside from making the Nightmare Fuel Prompt happen I did not do anything that could really be considered my usual posting. Some folks noticed this, and independently of one another reached out to me in private to make sure I was okay. And I guess I kind of am, really. I'm spending a lot of brain cycles considering my posting habits - frequency, content, public versus private. What I am putting out, and what I am taking in.

In the wake of the Pluxodus, and how few people have made the effort to connect with me here, I find those very deliberate connections, those checkings-in, to be incredibly valuable and gratifying. Too, there then comes the accompanying question of just how much am I continuing to seat my sense of self-worth in the regard of others for me, in the attention I get.

It's all a process. Mindfulness versus self-centeredness.

Work continues apace, with some interesting developments that I will perhaps make a filtered post about.

Home is in flux. Not in a bad way, but in a got-home-from-work-and-it-was-Surprise-Clean-All-The-Things-Day way. So, having been up since 6am and worked till 2, I launched into helping, because I was raised in such a way that if someone is cleaning, everyone is cleaning or else they are having A Bad Time. A piece of the kitchen that had been let go fallow is now clear and clean again. There are almost a half dozen boxen and bags ready to be donated to the thrift shop. Youngest Spawn now has caution tape wrapped around his door, and we are both delighted.

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This post was disrupted by dinner. We have a bonus child tonight, as Eldest's bestie is sleeping over tonight. We re-cleaned the table (which had become covered in laundry and donatables) and for the first time in a long, long time had a sit-down dinner with everyone at the table. It was pleasantly tumultuous.

Hello, Blisstopia. <3

Comments

Hi

[rokenford]

I thought about checking in here and on the blr, but I saw you rebagling stuffs and other than the art I tagged you in, i figured you needed a quiet day. Glad to hear everything is ok.

Re: Hi

[blissmorgan]

I was super pleased that you tagged me in on that art; it was perfect. And thank you for the thinks, and the noticing. <3

Re: Hi

[rokenford]

Yes, quite perfect. I am definitely working that scene into a one of her journal entries. But it's still two or three entries away I think.

[misterangel]

I was worried a little and hoping the lack of a mornthing wasn't due to Serious Problems™; but the lack of "daily" posts from other people made me think it was more likely Dreamwidth not showing me things for some reason.

I wish our part of the world included a sit-down dinner more often.

[blissmorgan]

I have found Dreamwidth to be very satisfying in terms of showing all the things, and in the order in which they were posted.

Are your flatmates not sit-down-dinner type folks?

[johncomic]

"Mindfulness versus self-centeredness."

Bingo.

[blissmorgan]

There's so much emotional turmoil in trying to find where the line is between them, because there really isn't a line as such.

[johncomic]

oh gosh that is true of so much in life and in every case it is a tough lesson to learn

[shredded_paper]

Glad to hear there's nothing terribly upending going on - feeling small is a Thing That Balances and everyone needs to be able to regroup and regather as they need to. Plus I'm so terrible with timezones that I never know if I'm overreacting or if people are actually just sleeping through their nights.

[blissmorgan]

I don't know pretty much anybody's timezones right now, except for misterangel whose general location is easy enough for me to remember. His whole country is in one time zone, I think.

Me, I'm in the US, in the Eastern timezone.

[shredded_paper]

I'm as far in the future as you can get, currently GMT+13. It's working out where everyone else where I trip up. Part of my brain insists that if it's Monday you can't possibly be talking to me from Sunday morning.

[joseph_teller]

Just a check in wave to let you know I've been by.

Yesterday my wife was ill so I was a bit preoccupied (Stomach bug she got at work it appears; burnt itself out by evening).

Namaste

[blissmorgan]

Urgh, I almost hate short stomach bugs worse than long ones because they haven't the decency to lay you low for an entire day, and it all somehow feels wasted. On the flip side of that, however, I am glad to hear that she was feeling better quite quickly. I ohpe it doesn't latch in to you next.

[fractalfrog]

Sit-down dinner with everyone at the table happens on a regular basis here, but only because Chaotic Neutral Boy really likes his daddy's spaghetti dinner, and his daddy makes spaghetti dinner happen 3 or 4 times a month.

Next spaghetti dinner will be a huge undertaking, because we ate the last of what was in the freezer last night, and sauce making takes a couple of hours, 3 big batches are created, and we have enough to eat plenty and then put up enough for 3 more dinners and smaller quantities for lunches, or daddy-son dinner on occasion.

[fractalfrog]

Would it make you feel any better about anything if I told you you're the only reason I set up this account?

You're worth that extra effort to me.

Remembering to check daily, I need to work on. But I have tools to help with that. I might want to use them.

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[wa_bob]

Like Fractalfrog, you are the reason I am here. You're that friend on the internet who I am as happy to be with as a warm cup of coffee and a good book. I also figured that you needed a time out like all of us do, but if I hadn't seen anything today I was going to start inquiries of my own.

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[littleweeds]

I'm having a hard time with everyone going to all different plaes and trying to evaluate whether I want to add yet another social media site to my checklist. I have limited space for online stuff and I hate feeling like I have to choose to loose contact with people.

I'm glad you're here but I would have followed you elsewhere too.