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Man, April was a weird month. I don't think I even posted here for at least two weeks. 

In that time I finally got my tax refund, as did SALM, and last weekend we went and made two big grownuppy purchases. One of these is a grey sectional couch with sleeper bed in it, which is going to replace the pair of IKEA chaise lounges we have been making do with as a sort-of-couch for the last few years. They were great when SALM was living on his own in a wee basement apartment, but they do not suit our needs for this space or, like, back support. I'm hoping to sell the lounges but, frankly, if we hit late next week and nobody has bought them? I am definitely prepared to give them away. Anyway, that delivery is next week, and so that is more of a Future Me situation to wrangle.

Now Me needs to wrangle things vis a vis the bed. That is the second big purchase we made: a brand new queen bed, because the full we have been sharing for the last few years is (A) not quite big enough for us and (2) badly breaking down. There is something in the metal structure inside that is coming apart, and so there is a deep and jangly groove on one edge and when SALM sits up one side of the bed sags like a bowl. His hips hurt from having to sleep on that, mine hurt from having to position myself in such a way that I don't roll into the bowl, both our backs hurt... it's a bad time all around. So, new firm and slightly larger mattress will be coming today.

That means I need to make room for the new stuff to come in:
  • Kitchen table pushed all the way against one wall
  • laundry moved out of hallway
  • Bookshelf and its contents moved out of turn of stairs to upstairs
  • Cedar chest moved away from foot of bed
  • current bed completely stripped

I've already done the first and last items. The bookshelf is the really daunting one, but I have an idea of where it needs to go; I now just need to make it happen.

But I'm tired and sore. My back hurts in new-old interesting ways - I think the tendonitis has crept up to settle into my upper back, where it used to hang out when I was still playing softball. Alas, there is no one to do the tasks I set for myself but me.

Oh damn, the old bed is a full and the new one a queen. I need to get new linens. >.< (This is not a BAD thing, I just wish I had thought of it sooner.)

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Me drinking coffee


Last night I went and visited my parents for the second day in a row. This time it was just me, meeting up with my dad, and we went down to the harbor to pull the boat out for the season. Even though I no longer live with my folks, this remains a thing that he largely asks me to come and do with him, and I always say yes. We've done it together often enough, the putting in and taking out of the boat, that there's pretty much no need for giving instruction any more. We each know what needs doing, and we do it efficiently.

This time we did it differently, though. Rather than dad driving the boat in to the boat ramp and then me standing knee deep in the water with one hand on a bow line and one hand on a rail to hold the craft steady in the water while he went and got the truck and trailer to back down the ramp, we began with backing the trailer down into the water, and he went and got the boat to drive directly onto the trailer. It worked like a dream, up onto the padded rails in one shot, and with the new tiedowns he got we were on the road to home in record time.

On the way home, my car started making A Noise. It was basically awful, a sort of rattling that is louder when the car is idling. I pulled into a station, checked the oil, put some in Just In Case, and did a visual check of my undercarriage as best I could in the dark. Nothing is dangling. I made it home without incident, but since I am due for an oil change anyway I will be making an appointment, hopefully for Friday. My best guess is some kind of hole or disconnect somewhere in the muffler/exhaust system. I am not looking forward to how much that fix is going to cost me.

This is coming on top of me flubbing funds availability for a Comcast payment, which they attempted to take out twice and I got hit with a NSF fee both times. Forty bucks it cost me, and I am pissed that they tried the second payment without contacting me first, and I am even more pissed with myself for mucking up that funds availability.

Between this and the car, my savings is going to be shot by the end of the week, and a nice thing I was going to do for myself is going to have to get put off indefinitely.

Jury is still out on whether or not I'm going to buy myself payday flowers, because I'm really not feeling the love for me right now.

You, though. YOU are great.

Hello, Blisstopia.<3
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 Y’ever watch a movie where something tumultuous happens, something utterly catastrophic, and there is an uproar of people jostling and yelling and making plans that are at odds with one another, and nobody’s quite listening entirely to each other long enough to really pull it together, and one quiet man (it’s always a man, isn’t it?) just kind of detaches himself to the group, strolling to the side or a quieter room or whatever, and there begins development of what ultimately becomes The Plan That Saves Them All? On the one hand, I quite enjoy that narrative trope, for what it is. Taking a quiet moment is a valuable tool, and outside-the-box-thinking has led to countless momentous developments in human history.  Yet that trope is rooted in and encourages our very American sense of American exceptionalism, the lone wolf man, the superhero, the superior guy who is going to change everything by dint of not being like the other girls guys.

Some very fine things can be achieved in solitude but humans are, overall, social creatures. A thinker alone is well and good, but never forget the second part of the trope - someone notices our quiet man has gone. Then they chase him down, or he returns to the group, and plans get implemented together.

Saturday is an early day for me, and me alone in the house; it gives me a lot of time to contemplate solitude. Today has had given me the sharp reminder of the fact that if I do not shift my Saturday work prep - or, at least, the shower part of it - to Friday night, then I am looking at a winter of miserable Saturday mornings. I stepped out of the house with wet hair into the 40-degree pre-dawn light, and my head was thoroughly chilled by the time I got to the car.

Later today I am going to a meatspace friend’s birthday party. Her favorite singer, Susan Werner, is going to be performing, and I amvery much looking forward to it. Werner is talented and funny, like a somewhat more political Christine Lavin. Perhaps I will dig up some choice song/video links tonight. 

For now, I go earn the monies, and enjoy this delicious maple walnut coffee. I am very much into trying out fall coffee flavors this year. 

Hello, Blisstopia. <3


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It is cool and grey and raining here today; it feels perfectly October and I am loving it.

I am still sick. I was hopeful that the triple-punch of antibiotics, steroids, and hydrocodone cough syrup would knock out of my chest whatever demon decided to settle in there. Alas! Yesterday was the last day of both the antibiotics and the steroids, and I opted to fall asleep from exhaustion (at like 9pm ) instead of taking the cough syrup. The chest demon woke me up ten minutes before my alarm this morning with a fit of coughing such that I was jamming my face down in the pillow to try, in vain, to keep from waking Secret Agent Lover Man. Give that he stirred and that the coughing did not stop, I gave up the remaining ten minutes as lost and got up to get on with the day.

The Spawn all moved reasonably well through the getting-ready portion of the day, even with the extra wrench of me remembering at the last minute that it is Silly Hat And Shoes Day at school (why? I do not know. It is Middle School. Silliness is its own reason.) and needing to help Youngest out of his socks and shoes, find a replacement pair of suitably silly socks, and get him all kitted out. Middlest is wearing a giant spider with poseable legs as a hat. Eldest has what he is calling a Conquistador had that is really a matador hat - and he is wearing it with a tie-dye tee-shirt.

I am trying to remember what sort of things I wore during middle school, and whether we had any such spirit days. Certain things come back to me, but not yet any of that. I remember the photo ripped out of a magazine that I hung in my locker, and the project I did on dolphins being used by the Navy for code work and getting full color photos from the Navy to include on my posterboard. I remember reading Gone With The Wind in math class, and learning how to draw Donald Duck's face on the whiteboard, and how liminal the library felt. I remember planning to start a Babysitter's Club with my friends that never came to fruition. I don't remember any Spirit Days until high school, though.

Today is largely an open unplanned possibilityscape. Secret Agent Lover Man is off work, but alas, there will be no saving of the world because I woke to the discovery of the uterus cleaning house again, and he has a thing about Not On Day One. Instead, we will go out to a leisurely breakfast at Whole Foods, where we don't have to prepare or clean anything because we can hit the hot bar, and he's going to do some retail therapy. He has an appointment later to which I will not be accompanying him, and that I will perhaps write about in a non-public post Because Of Reasons.

I spent a little time poking into a corner of the internet I haven't touched in ages. I wiped the dust off my Photobucket account and turned up my collection of icons - some made by me, some made by others - from back in the days of Livejournal. Among other things I have an entire set of Princess Bride icons, and a slew of Firefly icons. I will have to look through and sort out which 15 will be most suitable for me to use now that I am on Dreamwidth. I suspect that a shift in the way I will be using this in comparison to how I used to use LJ will mean that I'll need some new icons.

New is good.

Hello, Blisstopia. <3
Me, selfie in my kitchen October 12, 2018
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Taking a long, close look



The Spawn are enschoolenated, and I am enmedicated. Today is the last day for both the antibiotic and the steroid. I am relieved to be getting off the steroid; I miss self-control in a big way. Last night when I got home from work the very first thing I did was apologize to Middlest for the way I had blown up at her the night before about something that absolutely did not warrant the reaction I had. It’s making me very angsty, to have this chemically-induced lack of self control in the middle of all this internet change in which I am also struggling for some sense of control.

I am also nervous about coming to the end of the medicines, because I am not sure I am necessarily better. I am still coughing a lot except when I have just taken the hydrocodone cough syrup, and I am experiencing a fairly persistent rattle in my chest when in take any but the shallowest of breaths. It is entirely possible that I will be at the doctor’s office again within the week, unless it magically clears up on its own. :-/

It will also be interesting to see how being done with the meds affects my appetite; earlier this week I was a walking mouth and stomach. I wasn’t even hungry, per se, but I was Eating All The Things. Now I have to remind myself that I am a meat-bot and food is the fuel without which I will not have the gofightwin.

I have a meeting at the school this morning, before work. It’s probably only going to be a half hour and, TBH, I’m not even nervous. We need to discuss Youngest, and some of the patterns that have been observed over the last few years, and how he is doing with settling in to new place/people/schedule/expectations. Honestly? By all reports he’s doing really well. One or two rough days, but nothing that has required me coming in to pick him up. The day that he tried to run away from school notwithstanding, but that was early on, and has been handled. He likes school.

He wants to join the STEM Club. I am so. Excited. about that, both for him and for what it means in terms of his social growth and his willingness to try new things. I’ll be getting whatever info I can while I’m at the school today, to help him get in on that.

I am behind with my Nightmare Fuel writing, but keeping up with the posting of the prompts, and honestly I’m very at peace with that right now. I’m most of the way through writing for the Day 3 Prompt, and when I finish it I will put it up on the Patreon and start in on something for the Day 4 prompt. If it turns out that my NF prompts end up being the impetus to pick back up the Weekly Short Story that I had been doing before I got the day job, then so be it. It feels good to write, and since I set my own parameters for myself then I am also the one who can change those parameters according to my needs and circumstances. Let me say that again, because that feels really important and I think bears meditating on:

If I have set parameters for myself, then I can change those parameters according to my needs and circumstances.

Hello, Blisstopia.<3