Good mornthing

[blissmorgan]

I have not been super awesome on posting and replying on the regular for the past few days, but I'm not bent out of shape at myself about it. Life has been So Much.

SALM is down in NJ with his mom and grandmother who, as it turns out, not only had a stroke but also has not eaten in the past week. She is mostly sleeping, waking up periodically to tell him she loves him, and his mom that she loves her. She is 92, and I think she has come to the end of her road.

Spawnfather texted with me for a bit last night; his mother has been sent home from the hospital on oxygen. She is in congestive heart failure.

I'm having all the feelings this week, interspersed with a kind of emotional dead air, because that is apparently Too Much all at once and my brain/heart need a break.

I'm doing a lot of crocheting this weekend. When things are a mess and there are endings, working on a project is a defiant act of creation and a definite act of grasping for control.

Hello, Blisstopia. <3 

Comments

[johncomic]

This is indeed A Lot to deal with. If I give you space to breathe, don't confuse it with not caring. <3 <3 <3

[blissmorgan]

I would never. Plus you are a human with your own life and worries, so when you are Quiet I assume that means that you are also working on Dealing With Things. <3 <3 <3

[wa_bob]

When my brain is overloaded, doing something with my hands that I can see getting done helps me focus and keep the stress monsters at bay. It's a healthy way of dealing with things beyond our control.

You are dealing with a lot so write to help you make sense of it. As you pointed out in another forum, you can still make a difference to those around you by turning bad mornings into smiles. The big things may be beyond us, but we can still do good.

[blissmorgan]

Making things with my hands is definitely helping; I think writing is as well. I need to poke around on my writing/RP forum and see if I can't drum up another game.

[salobu]

Sending good thoughts your way. Those times are the worst kind of hard, when there really isn’t much you can do, so hopefully your projects will help ease the pressure on your brain.

[blissmorgan]

Making things has really been helping. I am putting something beautiful in the world, accomplishing things, having discrete control over something. #homemadetherapy